People create tremendous anxiety for themselves by feeling there is something they need to change.That need to "change something" only stems from their devaluing of themselves, they see themselves within a context of something being wrong, as opposed to right. The more one realize one can't change anything, or ignore it, (or at least delude themselves for just a bit thinking they can, until it strikes again), - just increases their anxiety, and ultimately their rebellion deepens, their disappointment becomes greater, their compulsions increases, as does their co-dependence.
Its not so much a story of suppression as it is a mystery of self acceptance. When one is caught in a thorn warring with it, one fails to see the rose. And when one finally sees the rose, one finally is drawn and raised above to the array of flowers blossoming in the field. And when one finally sees the array of flowers blossoming in the field, suddenly one sees the trees, the lakes, the skies, the stars and beyond...
Only through the magnificent awakening that comes from acceptance is transcendence. And one no longer is bound to the struggle with that small miserable part, precious time together with grand glorious things passing by.
When the mighty angel struggled with Jacob, it was only set free, the fight ending when Jacob finally revealed his name, when asked it. And Jacob, revealing his name, knowing it, who he was and is, suddenly he was made to become much greater, becoming Israel, the mighty angel simply vanishing, nameless. But the door to his becoming Israel, was his own name.
People devaluing themselves creates internal pain that fights back endlessly. It is ultimately devaluing the G-d that created them so whole and so perfect in every way. Adam, the first man devalued himself, and that led one thing to another, till he fell from paradise. That devaluation of himself led to sin. Lack led to error. A devaluing of himself, looking for fulfillment elsewhere, increasing his faulty, self-perception, one of lack and need, led to his depression. If he reveled in his perfection before the G-d who made him so, in that increasing his self-value, he would eternally have continually ascended higher and higher, and enter into unimaginable paradise forever. His sin was not the act of eating of the tree, (since that was done by another whom he valued much more than himself), his sin was his devaluing his perfection before the G-d that perfectly breathed life into him. His error was in his lack of self-acceptance, and lack of unconditional self-love.
The awesome realization that wakes in the conscious presence of a boundless unconditional love, gives rise to a humble, painless, anxiety free self that desires suddenly only to constantly remain in that awe, and in that lovely feeling of bliss only born from an awareness that there is only love, unconditional and competely accepting. At that moment only truth continually overcomes one, until it overtakes one with a priority to remain in that love, in the awe, and in the perfection of being present before its very self, and ultimately its G-d that continually breathes life into it, in its core center. As Moses knew his "G-d face to face", displaying boundless unconditional love toward himself, his G-d, and his people, protecting them, praying for them, loving them, never speaking evil against them, accepting them, defending them, forgiving them, praising them regardless of their shortcomings...for Moses knew that total self acceptance, even of his inherent (or not) imperfections, was his gateway to a perfect divine life in the face of his awesome G-d, that very consciousness leading him to value the people he led with an "unconditional positive regard", as the great Carl Rogers put it.
Doing the wrong things born from devaluation, (because a devaluing consciousness is in pain and will ultimately fall to the wrong and be victim to another), suddenly one will only do the right, because in ones self value constantly on the increase, one increases toward complete self acceptance, continually inspiring the right, and merging with the ultimate right of all rights, love of all loves, being of all beings, one, complete, and experiencing its divine destiny: Absolute Liberation.
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