THE SPILL AND THE FALL OF SELF

Nothing topples the mind, and overthrows the equilibrium of the brain as spilling seed. No longer is one of clear control of ones feelings and thoughts, but rather in a whirlpool of chaos. The sexual impulses rise much richer and much stronger after days of purity and cleanliness. Its virtually impossible to resist the sweet and heavy urges of sexual gratification after abstinence. It is an inevitable fall from grace, from revelation, from an outpouring of merciful light. What is released after self sexual stimulation are mirrors into what Jung perhaps calls the shadow self, but they are broken mirrors, and a shattered self. They are lethargic templates for depression, misinterpretation, misthought and misdeeds. Yet some are indeed able to overcome such temptations and they are indeed and rightly so, called, masters. They are heroes elevated to such rank, truly victorious warriors worthy of the universe's deepest treasures. The spiral of time continues as the web of existence moves us, pulls us, and thrusts us forward as we perceive, fall, dip, rise and pull ourselves up toward the wake of our ultimate messianic revelation. The key to free the guilt that destroys us is none other, but forgiveness. Only forgiveness sweetens our bitterness. We will go on punishing ourselves with disease until we forgive ourselves and set ourselves free. The truth is to cleave to the One, the center and core of your life that sustains you, that of course knows the failures of your default human nature, and so above all, loves you beyond your wildest imagination, and forgives you beyond your most resistant and stubborn refusal to forgive yourself. But your key is to ever seek that thing forgiveness for your own sorry and beautiful self, by your self to your true Self, and that Self of selves in the midst of your heart in the center of your mind that teaches you to understand with an unspoken wisdom and silence that's brighter and more brilliant than sound the difference between what is obviously wrong and obviously right. Learn. Learn the lessons, and simply learn and know and separate what you truly know is wrong, from what you know is right. And continually look for the good in all things at all moments, pursue peace, and do according to your will, directed by the will and law of love. "Love All as you Love Your Self".